Seventeen

I’ve just entered a new chapter in my life. I’m no longer sweet sixteen, I’m now seventeen. Wow… I’m seventeen.

It feels so different yet it’s still the same me.

I feel like God is going to give me an incredible year. Me with him by my side the whole way. After last night’s performance (um I sang even though I lost my voice… need I say more?) I think I am pretty much up for anything. I have no idea how God plans this stuff out or how I feel this peace even though everything went wrong. All I know is that with God, I made it and I am making it. And for now, that’s all I can ask for.

Are you making it with God by your side? Or are you stumbling around in the dark trying to find your way on your own? He’s waiting for you!

Fingers Crossed *Confessions Of A Throat Gargler

Gargle gargle gargle… soundtrack of my day.

Bedadine/ iodine… the taste of my day.

Hooray for the sore throat. A singer’s worst nightmare on the eve of their performance.

According to my Society & Culture textbook, your hairstyle says a lot about you.

Today I think my hair told people, I was sick and spent the morning in bed, keep your distance.

My overly thick, ridiculously long mane of hair can easily turn against me, transforming me into “Cousin It”…or so I’m told.

Eh, Perhaps I’m in denial. I am going to go iron the dress I WILL be wearing at the performance tomorrow.

*Puppy-dog eyes* your prayers would be greatly appreciated!

Taking Its Toll On Me

I’m sick.

Like emotionally and physically.

I have no idea what is going on but I have had these horrible, persisting head aches for 3 days now.

I’ve been crying and I’m a total emotional wreck. Panadol doesn’t work, smiling helps momentarily but for some reason the pain won’t subside.

I don’t know if it is because of all the tuff stuff my heart is trying to process or something is actually wrong with my body. But I want out. I hate this.

I haven’t done any home work for 2days and I’m getting angry at the people around me.

I’ve been at a youth conference all day, but unfortunately the loud music just made my head throb harder.

The night rally is on tonight and best band at the moment, New Empire, will be there and I’ve been looking forward to this for so long.

But will it be just another momentary distraction from what is tearing me up inside?

There is a great possibility if I could get myself together and think straight that I could be freed from this tonight.

My brain is as I would say “confuzled” and I have no idea what to do about it. Pray. Pray.

Man they’re not kidding when they say these tough times is what makes you stronger. I want to be stronger. But I know I’m not in it alone.