All Things New

Hey Everyone.

Just letting you know, after nearly two years of not blogging, I have decided to start a new blog.

I wanted to start a fresh, because I have grown and changed so much.

In a lot of ways, I still feel the same, but I know I have changed for the better.

This blog was from 2010 and I was going through a rough patch. But I have come out stronger, and I’d like to share that with you.

God is doing incredible things and I want to honour him more with my writing :)

Here’s a link to my new blog:

http://oneroadlesstravelled.wordpress.com/

In Christ’s Love, Nicola

 

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New Year’s Resolution

Tomorrow my blog will be last year’s news.

I always dreamed of having a blog and this time last year it became my New Year’s Resolution to make myself one. And I did.  It’s been fun. It really has. It’s provided me with a creative outlet and I am truly thankful for it. I never thought my blog would really get off the ground but one year later, here I am writing in it ever so regularly. It’s become a normal activity in my everyday life and I really enjoy writing.

Unfortunately, this year, it is my New Year’s Resolution to end my blog.

As good as it has been to take the opportunity to develop my writing skills as a means of expressing myself, it has been soul-wrenching to find my prayer life neglected and enter into a depressing drought.

As much satisfaction as I have in receiving comments and hits on my blog I know it will never compare to the surpassing greatness of knowing my Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ. Nothing can give me the joy and peace that I find in Him.

I hoped that in starting a blog, the inner me would come out. That by writing about my life and myself, God would naturally flow through as God has always been the centre of my life. I hoped that by that, my readers would be encouraged in their own walk with God.

I was right… the true me did show and that is the sinful, selfish me that I am without God in complete control of my life. In depriving myself of those important moments with God, my Christian strength had dwindled out and how could I ever expect to lead as a Christian when I myself was suffering?

I am not joking when I say that this been the hardest and most unrewarding year of my life. It’s funny, it has been the best year of high school for me and good in many other ways but overall it has been a drag with underlying depressive streaks. All year I have cried and made numerous failed attempts to really feel connected with God like I had been for so long.

It hurts because I know what it is like to be completely in sync with Jesus and I know what I am missing. So this year I want to find that again. I will be even more busy with school and loaded with stress, which is why I cannot afford to miss out on my time alone with God. I need to read my Bible, I need to write in my prayer journal and rather than writing in my blog, I need to go back to that therapeutic method called writing in a diary.

I absolutely adore having a blog and I would love to come back to it. It is just a sacrifice I know I must make right now to get myself and my life back on the track God has destined for me. I am at total peace about this and I know it is the right thing to do.

So may God bless you all this New Year and I pray that each one of you will come closer and closer to Him, who loves you so much.

In Christ’s Love, Nicola.

Yes, everything else is worthless when compared with the infinite value of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For his sake I have discarded everything else, counting it all as garbage, so that I could gain Christ.

Philippians 3;8

But grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. To him be glory both now and forever! Amen.

2 Peter 3:18

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You Are The Wind Beneath My Wings

Letter 15:  The person you miss the most

Hey Jesus,

I miss you & I bet you’ve missed me too. I get so annoyed at myself for depriving each of us of the time we spend together. I always seem to have something more important or more appealing to do with my time.

Funny thing is I honestly know that nothing is more important than spending time with you. When I open your word nothing is more appealing because it is ALWAYS so relevant for where I am at and offers me support and encouragement.

I’m sorry I’ve been writing more letters on my blog than letters to you. Please forgive me.

One last thing. I’ve been into this song today and it is from me to you :)

It might have appeared to go unnoticed,
but I’ve got it all here in my heart.
I want you to know I know the truth, of course I know it.
I would be nothing without you.

Did you ever know that you’re my hero?
You’re everything I wish I could be.
I could fly higher than an eagle,
’cause you are the wind beneath my wings.

– Wind Beneath My Wings – (Performed by) Bette Midler

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We Were…

Letter 14:  Someone you’ve drifted away

We were best friends

We both shared the joy

Of living with God.

We were Christians

We were sisters

We both knew each other’s every thought.

No I didn’t take it for granted

I knew what we had was to treasure.

I reveled in those moments

Assuming they’d last forever.

But they didn’t did they? Nope we drifted apart. They call it the inevitable but I’m not sure it’s the same for us. I was here. Always have been, always will be here. But you left me. My heart cracked when I lost you. The first person I ever learned to care about. It was incredible what you and I had. Being friends with you taught me so much. So much. I still can’t thank you enough for being my friend all those years.

I remember when Dad used to call you my ‘shadow’ because we were always together. Friendship is bliss. Well it was.

Then you got in with the wrong crowd. I had an awful feeling about them. You started drinking and then you went out with that guy. I remember riding over to your house. You’d skipped school and spent the day at home with your boyfriend. As you pleaded me not to tell your mum he’d been there I looked deep in your eyes, searching for the girl I knew. What had you done with my best friend? All I could see was the sapling of misery taking root in your heart.

I didn’t come back again. You didn’t want me to. You stopped returning my calls and stopped coming to church. For years I have cried for you. I really thought that introducing you to God when you were 11 would save you from the horrors of the teenage years without God. But it was not His plan and I often ask Him why you have to suffer like you do.

There is a silent and awkward air between us now. The last time I saw you, you downed a bottle so you wouldn’t have to face me for the rest of the night. We never spoke about our friendship or increasing lack there of it. We just knew. It was the end for us. You chose the worldly life and I remained on my walk with God. We couldn’t co-exist. Not with your conscience.

I hate that I have to be God’s representative when I remember that that is why you despise me. You see him in me and cannot stand the conviction you feel when you’re around me. So you avoid me. Our friendship evaporated. And I miss you like hell.

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Get The Message?

Letter 13:  Someone you wish could forgive you

Sorry to bother you but hear me out?

I’m not perfect. That’s pretty much the summation of this situation. I- Am – Not – Perfect.

Gosh I am willing to admit that! I never have been and I never will be perfect. You know it but why is it so hard for you to accept? Hopefully one day you’ll realise the truth and stop holding this grudge against me. & I pray that with God, you and I can eventually sort this whole thing out.

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Jesus Is The Reason For The Season

When asked which song I enjoy singing the most at carols in the park I’m always quick to reply ‘Oh Holy Night’. Without a doubt. I love it, not only because of its incredible melody but when we sing it is so much more powerful than any of the others. We sing forth with gusto because the lyrics really hit home.

I just love standing up there on the stage looking out at everyone and singing this song to them. My church is in one of the most infamous areas of town. Ratty kids with drug addict parents, prostitutes and pimps and having them there with their full attention on you and being able to sing “Christ is the Lord!” THAT is what they need to be hearing and I love that they are there to hear it. THAT is what Christmas is about. & One day I am sure we won’t be able to sing those songs in public anymore. So let’s use these opportunities God gives us to bring the glory to him.

Merry Christmas!

Oh holy night!
The stars are brightly shining
This is the night of the dear Savior’s birth!
Long lay the world in sin and error pining
Till he appear’d and the soul felt its worth.
A thrill of hope the weary world rejoices
For yonder breaks a new and glorious morn!

Fall on your knees
Oh hear the angel voices
Oh night divine
Oh night when Christ was born
Oh night divine
Oh night,
Oh night divine

Truly He taught us to love one another
His law is love and His gospel is peace
Chains shall He break for the slave is our brother
And in His name all oppression shall cease
Sweet hymns of joy in grateful chorus raise we,
Let all within us praise His holy name.

Christ is the Lord
Oh praise His name forever
His power, and glory evermore proclaim
His power, and glory evermore proclaim

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Which To Bury Us Or The Hatchet?

Letter 12: The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

I’ve Got To Love You Anyway.

So “Love” Nicola.

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