Snapshots On The Road To Nowhere

Apparently we might not even bother trying…

Nice encouragement from the teacher. Keeps telling us how hard it is, that she doesn’t think we’re up to it. Perhaps it not that she doesn’t belive in us as much as she doesn’t believe in herself. I can’t understand why though… we all believe in her and truly adore her. I mean she’s pretty inspirational and I gotta admit I hope to be like her one day.

Still, I don’t understand what is with all this discouragement. I haven’t learnt a thing in four weeks except how hard this next year will be. Sure I know that. We all do. I just don’t understand why we must dwell on the negative instead of investing in the positive.

I know we won’t top the state. All of us know that and we definitely aren’t expecting to. We know there are students a million times brighter, harder working and with more money to spend on their education.

I don’t mind. I’ve accepted where I’m at and I’m thinking maybe she needs to aswell. Otherwise I don’t see the point in trying. What’s the point in wallowing in disdain when you could be out there trying your best? Honestly, it’s only school. I know I’m not going to do so fantastic and that’s because I actually have a life. I don’t mind that.

I just wish each class was not staring into the future of what is seemingly nowhere. Rather than looking at what is on the other side can’t we just enjoy now? Can’t we just do our best now? Split up this journey and break up our future. Take some snapshots along the way.

That way if we do get nowhere at least we can remember the journey and be greatful for that.

 

More To Life

Sometimes life can get you down. You find it becomes nearly impossible to smile because negativity has infiltrated nearly every area of your life. But believe me, incessantly dwelling on it will only make things harder. I know it can be difficult to try to focus your mind on something else and I often wonder why it is so much easier to dwell on negative things than positive things.

If you’re like me, negativity is what you use to tap into your creativity. It seems emotive language is only available if it has negative connotations and to write something effective you need to entertain these thoughts so they can provide you with a basis for your creative piece. The completion of your piece gives you great satisfaction amidst your sorrow so you do it over and over just to get that moment of contentedness.

I do it. I bet we all do it sometimes. I know the best songs I write are sad, somber, melodramatic and often times depressing. I find it hard to write happy songs. I mean really hard. Same goes with my posts, the majority of them were created in times of uncertainty and disappointment, confusion and lack of ‘happiness’. But I surge on. I’m trying to push away those negative thoughts and I’m learning what it takes to dwell on the happy ones.

So when you say you feel: Worthless, pathetic and completely unloved.  You are so wrong. I assure you. You are worth something. You are not pathetic. You’re good at using emotive language :) and you are and always will be loved, no matter who you are or what you’ve done.

When you see this beautiful quote: “Life isn’t tied with a bow, but it’s still a gift.”   Please don’t reply like this: “Life is nothing but a boring chain of events.  One after another, the same old thing. The same things, every single day. Lonliness, sadness and disappointment”. Don’t swell on the bad stuff. Dwell on the good stuff. I know it can be hard. I think it’s silly that it takes practise to focus your mind on positive things when the negativity lingers like a pesky mosquito. But you can do it. Work at it!

You’re worth it and you can be so much more :)

Inspiration:

http://mylifethetruth.wordpress.com/2010/10/14/written-by-a-90-year-old-woman-with-my-comments/

Progressive Perspective

Today I went to the Sydney Opera House.

I have never been there before. My parents always go without me but not this time.

Us Yr11 & Yr12 music students drove down in the mini bus with our teacher. All girls.

It was a very progressive day. I had time to contemplate my future and my actions and time to write many poems.

I was so excited to give you this one that I wrote. It amazes me that negative emotions evoke such a strong passion in me. I wrote this poem and I found myself playing up the situation with exquisite emotive language.

But I have decided against showing it to you. I have learned that sometimes it is better to keep your mouth shut. Just because you are feeling something doesn’t mean you should act on it. Just because of the way you perceive something doesn’t mean it is right.

And it is not right to condemn another person is it? Ever. But in private? I am wondering perhaps I should stop. Perhaps I should stop toying with these emotions. Even though the outcome, in a poem can seem so fulfilling, is it worth the disintegration that takes place within me just to reach that point?

I mean it’s only a poem. Perfect poem- hindering heart or painless poem- hopeful heart?

What are you entertaining your thoughts with? What is it in your life that is only eating away at you? Are you open to new people and all that their being entails or are you always right and anyone who contradicts you must be wrong?

Open your eyes, ask Jesus for his glasses. It will change your entire perspective.