Taking Its Toll On Me

I’m sick.

Like emotionally and physically.

I have no idea what is going on but I have had these horrible, persisting head aches for 3 days now.

I’ve been crying and I’m a total emotional wreck. Panadol doesn’t work, smiling helps momentarily but for some reason the pain won’t subside.

I don’t know if it is because of all the tuff stuff my heart is trying to process or something is actually wrong with my body. But I want out. I hate this.

I haven’t done any home work for 2days and I’m getting angry at the people around me.

I’ve been at a youth conference all day, but unfortunately the loud music just made my head throb harder.

The night rally is on tonight and best band at the moment, New Empire, will be there and I’ve been looking forward to this for so long.

But will it be just another momentary distraction from what is tearing me up inside?

There is a great possibility if I could get myself together and think straight that I could be freed from this tonight.

My brain is as I would say “confuzled” and I have no idea what to do about it. Pray. Pray.

Man they’re not kidding when they say these tough times is what makes you stronger. I want to be stronger. But I know I’m not in it alone.