Being Busy Is Distracting

School, School & School.

It’s seems bad and it seems stressful. The idea of being overloaded with assessments. But honesty, I’m more stressed without them. When they’re not in the next few days I’ll put them off and spend my time bludging.

Bludging: for me consists of checking me email and Facebook every two seconds. Playing piano or guitar and writing depressing blog posts. :P

But now that I’m busy. I feel so much better. I don’t have time to mope about the house. I don’t have time to reflect while strumming out a chord progression. All I can think about it ‘drive here, drive there’, ‘speak to this teacher’, ‘write this speech’. I feel so much better when I am busy.

Busy means having no time to join meaningless groups on Facebook, having no time to write a blog that requires me to dig deep. Being busy means being happy. Having a purpose.

But being busy also means I need God. Have you ever felt too busy to stop, read your Bible and pray? Have you ever heard that saying, ‘I’m too busy NOT to pray’? It’s true. I’ll find myself wanting to go to sleep without doing my devotions when I’ve got plenty of time and I’m lazy. But when I’ve been motivated to get stuff done I tend to be more keen on getting that important part of my day in.

So yeah I’ve got my head in the books at the moment and to be honest. It is not at all a bad feeling. Haha and the marks that come out of it are encouraging too so it’s worth it :)

 

School’s Caving In.

School.School.School.

What is the first word that some to your head when you hear that?

Stress? Homework? Friends? Uniforms? Exams? Essays? Assessments?

Ummm all of the above?

My brain is over loaded. I got 3 assessments today. I am feeling quite agitated. But I’m going to keep myself together.I will. School isn’t everything. I know that. But I’m just so worked up on doing well. I just want to make the teachers happy. I want some results that reflect the effort I’ve been putting in all year. And beating myself up for not doing my best last time. Unfortunately I can’t change that.

Yeah these exams are pretty daunting. I don’t have the best history with exams. Lets just say I wouldn’t be taking my report with last years exam marks to an employer for a resume… ever!

But I just keep telling myself that I have to rise to the challenge.

So that’s what I’m going to do. I’m going to get out my boxing gloves and do my best. You know I never though of that until now? I want to do my best. The best is all I can give. I gotta stop beating myself up and start taking it out on these assessments/studying/brutal exams.

So I apologise in advance for being silent this next week. And if you do hear from me… you’ll know I’m procrastinating!

Man. If only school was this fun. Swinging your legs back and forth (OK I still do that cuz I’m short!) Drawing pictures. Getting that cute boy’s attention. Yeah if only hey?

Motionless Yet Notating

Just a quick blog… to say sorry for not writing anything meaningful of late.

I’m so caught up in school work and life it just isn’t funny hey?

That sleepless night has nearly rendered me motionless. The days have seemed to drag on. It feels like it should be Thursday.

I have not energy enough to move the muscles in my face and my eyes are going dry in their sockets. But it is funny. I still found the energy to tap out a beat with my fingers in time with the blinker in the car on the way home from singing lessons :)

Tonight’s mission is to finish notating my song for music, due tomorrow. Write about inspiration for my piece and the concepts of music integrated into it. That’ll mean opening up the text-book… oh joy!

Yes I’ve been thinking. I do have stuff to write about it. But not now.

hehe I just had to fix up a ton of spelling mistakes in this post!!

Least I can do is give you a pic.

This is what I’ll be doing when you read this :)

If only it was that simple and that glorious eh? I like to tell myself it is though. And you feel so great after you’ve written a song and notating it is amazing!

Sleepless

:S Probably should not have asked Mum to make me that tea. Probably should have listened to Dad when he told me I wouldn’t be able to sleep.

Probably should have just gone to sleep when I felt tired. Probably should have ended the night’s reading with my devotion. Definitely made a mistake reading the last few chapter of Nights In Rodanthe before I went to bed.

*Spoiler Alert* Ok I know, I’ve been a Nicholas Sparks fan long enough to guess the endings. But guessing it would happen made me want to read… just to see if I was right. Flip, how am I meant to sleep now? One minute I am swooning over the cute letters he wrote her… the next minute he is dead in Ecuador.

Hence my sleeplessness.

Only problem is I have a major assessment tomorrow… and I am not finished. My alarm clock is set for 4.30 am cause my lil bro is turning 7 and I have to make time for presents etc in the morning.

So I just want a litttttle bit of sleep. Yes a little bit would be nice :)

Here’s a poem I found on the net. I took out bits that weren’t relevant… like sleeping pills.. yeah, not me.

Sleep:

Sleep, sleep,
Come my way.
Let me sleep,
So I can start a new day.

Sleep, sleep,
My brain is delirious.
Stop playing tricks, sleep,
You’re making me furious.

– © Leigh Ladd