An Impossible Friendship

A guy and a girl can be just friends, but at one point or another, they will fall for each other…Maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late, or maybe forever.
-Dave Matthews Band

Apparently. Far out, sometimes I hate being a girl. I hate having to limit myself simply because of who I am. Often times I wish I was a guy. In some ways things would be so much easier. Because in a society where I’ve always seen woman as equal to men, I’m thinking we’re not. Or maybe we are equal, but some are mire equal than others.

Everywhere you’ve got all those songs, movies and quotes declaring that people don’t want to be ‘just friends’ they want more. In all honesty I just want friendship. Why is that so difficult? Or rather why is it so easy to be friends with him but so wrong? How and why is it wrong? If I were a guy or he were a girl it would be fine. But we’re not and now I’ve got to deal with the reality.

I hate that he has the best of both worlds and here I am, struggling to be the bigger person in my mission to cut him loose. Still, I am failing miserably. He is just too friendly, too caring and too much fun. I can be sitting on my bed like I am now, devising ways and reasons for which he and I can’t be friends but then I’ll be out and he’ll come gallivanting up to me and I’m left wondering how the heck this is even going to be possible.

There are times when I think about the future and when he has a wife. Simply because I’m a girl and he’s a guy we won’t be friends anymore. It just isn’t right and seriously, I’m going to be truly sad. But that’s the way life is and we need to accept it.

Then that gets me thinking, we’re still young! We’re just kids, it’s only fun, all that separation can wait for the future, when it really needs to. Then I wonder if our friendship and time is really worth it, if it’s going to evaporate in the fast approaching future.

I’m seriously confused at the moment and I know I haven’t been giving it enough thought. Even though he seems to think it’s fine, my parents think it’s not. He has a girlfriend so I need to leave him alone. What do I do? And how do I make him leave me alone? How do I come to the point where I sacrifice my own desires of friendship for him?

At the moment I hate being the girl caught in the middle. Serious, don’t you just wish you were a guy sometimes? And since we can’t change that… what are we meant to do? If you know, please tell me or point me in the right direction.

Daily Lessons

Today I learnt a heck of a lot. I just hope I learn from the mistakes I made and the mistakes I nearly made. Here’s my advice:

• Whatever happens, make an effort at all costs not to slam the door shut onto your own finger.
• When you’re fainting, the best thing to do is elevate your feet. It works!
• It’s ok to cry at the doctor’s and make the old ladies feel sorry so they let you go before them.
• It’s finally ok to stick your rude finger up… if it’s bandaged.
• Sometimes things don’t, can’t or shouldn’t always go as planned.
• Homework can actually be the best thing about your day and make you feel good (afterwards).
• When you get older, your parents leave you to make the tough decisions for yourself.
• It’s culturally impossible for a girl and a guy to be ‘just friends’.
• It takes, and is going to continue to take courage to follow through what’s best in light of the future rather than what feels good now.
• Just because everyone else is doing it (and I mean the whole city)… doesn’t mean you should.
• If a guy has a girlfriend. Run away! (Or so I’m told).
• Coke spiders are amazing.

A Little Experience

They say ‘a friend in need is a friend indeed’.

I can’t say I ever understood what that actually meant. Does it mean that they will be a good friend for you, or they are the ones you should invest your time in? I’m supposing the latter.

I was just thinking tonight about how I was able to help someone out. This lady is going through a rough patch with her daughter and I was able to encourage her by sharing a similar experience I had with a friend.

Sometimes when crap happens we don’t really understand why. I believe these are the times when we grow and become a stronger person. Once we’re through, the situations seem so dissolve into blurred memories but I don’t think they should. They can still be of use, even when in the past.

Often times, especially if we are younger, we can feel like our experiences are cheap, shallow and not worth sharing. We can get self-conscious around adults because, really what do we know and what have we experienced that they haven’t? But if we can be confident in our experiences and the lessons God has taught us through them we can exhibit God’s glory to those around us. Even though some people seem to have it all together doesn’t mean they do and getting the courage to go the extra step with them can make all the difference. We shouldn’t be afraid and we should not doubt that God can use us simply because we are young and less wise.

In fact, in these ways, God’s glory can be shown even further, because what we do and what we say couldn’t really be expected, or explained coming from us. It comes through Jesus.

So when the next opportunity comes up, and a friend has a problem. Don’t override an experience of your own because in doing so you might deprive them of the encouragement they need.

The Day You Meet That Special Someone

You know one day you will wake up and that will be the day you will meet someone new…

Someone special… uhuh you know what I’m talking about :P that ‘special someone’.

I wonder if when you get out of bed you just feel fantastic like ‘man something awesome must be happening today because I feel great and I have no idea why’.

Or i wonder if it happens on one of your ‘off days’… if you just happen to accidentally stumble across love.

I dunno but makes me wonder :) you never know when ‘that day’ will be.

Could have been today…

:)

Yer but I’m thinking I really don’t want to experience ‘love at first sight’

Honestly… all that will happen is you will get all tangled up in emotion and not see what you need to be seeing. I mean when you’re married… that ‘love’ you experienced when you first laid eyes on the guys… well it’ll be gone.

I dunno why does love always have to be like a puzzle? Why are there too many pieces.. It’s like a puzzle slash treasure hunt. I mean first you’ve got to find the pieces and then you have to figure out where they go… if they fit.

ahhh I’m wishing I didn’t have that coke. I want to fall asleep and dismiss these tangled musings.

life lesson: # never ask a guy for his number… it makes you seem way to forward. If it’s meant to be :) God will bring him back around. He knows what he’s doing… trust him. *unfortunately I had to learn that the hard way… with a really hot guy.. its ok it wasn’t tonight :)